"I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love." - Carrie Bradshaw, ala Sarah Jessica Parker; Sex and the City
Have you found yours? 'Cos I've found mine. =)
Monday, November 9, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
on death and loss
Fear is a strange thing. Many fear different sorts of things in this world. Fear of the dark? Fear of being alone? Fear of heights/small spaces/insects?
There are many things that I fear. But most of all, I fear death. And loss. Death of my loved ones as well as myself.
In life every one has a similar destination. We are all living out lives day by day in a lead up to the eventual destination--death. Where do we go from here?
Religion aside, what happens when we die? Do we enter a realm of eternal darkness where we are unconscious forever, just like when we are asleep? An eternal and perpetual coma that we never wake up from?
Are we still in a conscious state of mind, thinking; "where am I now?", or "what should I eat next?"
Do we still see in colour? Do we still have our senses when we are in the 'netherworld'/afterlife/the other realm?
Will this go on forever? Is there ever an ending to it? What happens to human civilisation when Judgement Day comes?
So many questions.... is life, in that sense, worth living? Aren't we all just aimless individuals who live day by day, waiting for that day to come when we bid goodbye to this earth?
There are many things that I fear. But most of all, I fear death. And loss. Death of my loved ones as well as myself.
In life every one has a similar destination. We are all living out lives day by day in a lead up to the eventual destination--death. Where do we go from here?
Religion aside, what happens when we die? Do we enter a realm of eternal darkness where we are unconscious forever, just like when we are asleep? An eternal and perpetual coma that we never wake up from?
Are we still in a conscious state of mind, thinking; "where am I now?", or "what should I eat next?"
Do we still see in colour? Do we still have our senses when we are in the 'netherworld'/afterlife/the other realm?
Will this go on forever? Is there ever an ending to it? What happens to human civilisation when Judgement Day comes?
So many questions.... is life, in that sense, worth living? Aren't we all just aimless individuals who live day by day, waiting for that day to come when we bid goodbye to this earth?
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
just enjoy the show
Yesss I am well aware that my blog posts are irritatingly cryptic and annoyingly short. Not to mention they say absolutely nothing about my life here in Hong Kong. As I grow older I realise I'm not the blogging sort. Writing about my day gets pretty mundane sometimes--as mundane as my life is, perhaps?
All I can think of now is how much I miss Singalingaling (never thought I'd say that but yes I have) and how much I want to go back. I honestly can't comprehend how any one could go on exchange for two semesters...insane. Or maybe it's me, I left my heart back in sg. -heaves a forlorn sigh like hopeless sappy romantics do-
Deadlines for applying for summer internships are soon. Like, very very soon. But I'm not doing anything. I feel like such a bum. I rrreaaallly don't want to do my internship at a bank this time but neither do I want to go some dumbass marketing/PR department anywhere else. My only options are ad firms and other bd FMCG firms like P&G but banking still takes the cake for being the most dynamic and challenging (for me, at least). Of course to be a dreamer I would LOVE to work in Fashion PR but sorry that's not where the money is.
Besides, it's my penultimate year and I cannot afford to screw up my last internship. I'm from bloody NUS and stuff like exchange and internships are the only things that can boost my CV and make me, well, hopefully almost (and I emphasise almost because being on par with them may be almost impossible) on par with people from prestigious overseas universities (USC, LSE, Kings, NYU and the works). How to compare with the Ivies and the other elite schools around the world??? NUS grads can eat shit already la. Plus what with all the SMU students who are being spoonfed with internships all the time by their marketing genius of a school. UGH.
Okay enough of my whining. Am supposed to be studying for a mid term this Wednesday but I just came here to bitch a little. Back to my notes. Ciao.
All I can think of now is how much I miss Singalingaling (never thought I'd say that but yes I have) and how much I want to go back. I honestly can't comprehend how any one could go on exchange for two semesters...insane. Or maybe it's me, I left my heart back in sg. -heaves a forlorn sigh like hopeless sappy romantics do-
Deadlines for applying for summer internships are soon. Like, very very soon. But I'm not doing anything. I feel like such a bum. I rrreaaallly don't want to do my internship at a bank this time but neither do I want to go some dumbass marketing/PR department anywhere else. My only options are ad firms and other bd FMCG firms like P&G but banking still takes the cake for being the most dynamic and challenging (for me, at least). Of course to be a dreamer I would LOVE to work in Fashion PR but sorry that's not where the money is.
Besides, it's my penultimate year and I cannot afford to screw up my last internship. I'm from bloody NUS and stuff like exchange and internships are the only things that can boost my CV and make me, well, hopefully almost (and I emphasise almost because being on par with them may be almost impossible) on par with people from prestigious overseas universities (USC, LSE, Kings, NYU and the works). How to compare with the Ivies and the other elite schools around the world??? NUS grads can eat shit already la. Plus what with all the SMU students who are being spoonfed with internships all the time by their marketing genius of a school. UGH.
Okay enough of my whining. Am supposed to be studying for a mid term this Wednesday but I just came here to bitch a little. Back to my notes. Ciao.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Immortal Beloved
July 7, 1812
Good morning,
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
Ludwig Van Beethoven
Good morning,
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours
Ludwig Van Beethoven
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
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